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heyyya. hurm. the second one. I'm fake.

I fake smile, fake laugh, fake jokes, fake clothes, fake face and maybe fake at being a normal teenage girl. I think most of my junior hates me because I was being too strict on them during our training for the school's sports day. I was like keep training, buying them ice-cream, candies and anything else that I can affford in just one tiny condition, please come for the training but what did they give me. bullshit! urgh. I hate them. I sacrificed a lot, but they gave me nothing in return. like I was wasting my time trying to figure out a good excuse so they wouldn't get punished for being absent and coming late or anything then making a stupid report for the teacher. I hate those times. Thank god It happened like 2 months ago. whoo ~ 

I think I got some kind of relation with shakespear or anything because I certaintly can't understand what I'm saying . whoohoo . lucky me. awesome. 

yea. I'm awesome .

0001

First confession. I'm scared. Of losing . Not just people, stuff but myself. I'm afraid If I start to lose sight of myself one day. I hate to think that I'm going to end up being like those weird dude that keep leaving and come back only when they need us. I hate the idea of being an adult. I'm going to forget, all those memories of being of a child. I'm going to start thinking bout the consequences first. i don't want to be someone else. I want to stay young and free. An awesome life. 

Well, confessing is not really an easy thing to do but somehow and tired of keeping everything in a bottle and cover it with a thousand layers of titanium and throwing it in the ocean. it's stupid. I want to share stuff but I'm afraid if people won't accept me. I hate being alone. I don't want to be left alone in the dark. I hate that situation . I just want to be me with all my love ones sorrounding my world. thats the best i can ask for , ain't that right ?

just being me